Monday, September 29, 2014

I'm the asshat.

As much as I don't want to share this new dating disaster, it's a must. I say that because I want to be able to look back at these stories one day and realize how much I've learned and grown.  Also, I want to be able to say "thank you" for each one of them.

I can't say that I really knew this guy. We both used to go out a lot back in the day. But, we never went out together.  We've been texting and calling each other for a little over a week now. First, let me give you his background. He works at BF Goodrich and has for 7 years, has a car, own apartment, two teenage boys, and I'd like to point out that he's 41 years old.  So, back to what I was saying...we've been texting and calling each other for a little over a week now. He seemed to be on the same common sense train that I am on. We talked a lot about how parents are raising their kids these days. How hard it is to date from both a man and woman's prospective. We had good conversations.  We hung out the other night and he did try to mess around and I told him no. I told him that I wasn't going down that road and that I wanted to do this differently. He tried messing around with me, but nothing that made me feel uncomfortable.  We hung out for probably 2.5 hours. Today, I wasn't sure when I'd hear from him because he doesn't work today. I was online and noticed our email thread was gone.  I clicked on his profile and it didn't say anything about my being blocked. I got on Facebook and sure enough, we weren't friends anymore. I went to text him twice and it showed my messages failed.  I called him from work to leave him a sweet message. Usually, I just don't say anything because they're not worth the time or energy. But, I couldn't let this one go.  I told him he was just like the other guys. That he just proved once again why I am still single. Oh, and lets not forget he specifically said, "I don't sleep around." short, I said "fuck you" and hung up. Well, he only deleted me on Facebook; he didn't block me. So, I sent him an email saying the same things.  It showed he read it, but he didn't respond. 

So, guys answer me this?  You don't call if a woman does give it up and you don't call if they don't give it up. Well, high mother fucking five to me for not having sex with you. 

I'm officially putting myself on a dating hiatus.  I cannot blame anyone but myself for my experiences.  It doesn't matter how old someone is, what they do for their job, how many kids they have, if they do drive and own a car, if they live alone or with their mama. It's something that I am missing and I've got to find it within MYSELF.

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