Monday, November 29, 2010

Thanksgiving = Giving Thanks

I had originally planned on doing a blog on Thanksgiving to express what I am grateful for this year.  When I think of what I'm grateful for, I think of the people in my life, not the material things. Just to name a few...
  • Dad - My Dad is literally my rock. He is there through all of my ups and downs. He's there no matter what may be going on in my life. He provides that voice in my head that I some times need.
  • Jennifer - She's not only my sister, she's my best friend. I can call her anytime of the day, and she'll be there for me. I know that I can vent to her about anything that may be going on in my life. I think the older we've gotten, the closer we've become.

Text msg I got today (11/30/2010) - "Just wanted u to know I'm thinking about u. I know it was hard to leave there today. I pray all the time something is gonna come up permanent. Love ya!"
  • Samantha - She's also not only my sister, but she's always there when I need someone to make me laugh. And, I count on Eric for some crazy stories, because they are pretty hilarious when it involves those two. I'm so glad my Dad and her Mom got married, because I'm not sure what I would do without her.
  • Michele - Speaking of Samantha's Mom, Michele is the most genuine person I know. I'm so lucky to have grown up with such a wonderful step-mom.
  • Mom - Although, my Mom and me haven't been real close this year, she's still my Mom and always will be. She gives great advice and can make me laugh too.
  • Nieces & Nephews - Morgan, Olivia, Evan and Ethan are my heart & soul. I love these kids like they are my own. They are the reasons I do not ever want to move out of Fort Wayne. I couldn't live without seeing them whenever I wanted to.
  • Stacia - She's my bfff (and, no it's not a typo. there is an extra "f" in there). I would have to say that Stacia knows me better than anyone does (including my family). She knows everything about it and can read me like a book. I've known her since 1998 when we started college together. We didn't stay in touch after college, but when I started working at BBDS&B in 2005, we became close again. I wouldn't be able to live without my bfff.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Opening Day

I cannot express my excitement about Christina Aguilera's movie Burlesque coming out today. I've already bought my ticket, and will be sitting front row at 7:20 p.m. 

This week she's been on a lot of TV shows, and I haven't missed one. She was on Ellen, Conan, Chelsea Lately, and DWTS. Oh, let's not forget the AMA's on Sunday. I don't get real excited when it comes to a lot of singers or actors, but I've been following Christina for quite some time now. I think I admire her most because she's not dancing on a bar everynight. I also admire that she doesn't get into social networks like Twitter. She keeps her personal life private, and I think that's admirable.

Looking forward to tonight. I know the movie is going to be great.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Smorgasboard of Thoughts

I've been hesitant to write a blog lately, because I don't have one specific topic to talk about. I don't want to write one of those blogs where I'm jumping from one thought, topic or emotion to another. But, looks like that's what I'm going to do.

I recently, got a temporary position which I really like. I just kept pretending that I'd work there permanently because I was doing such a good job and really liked it. Yesterday, I was told the new girl would be starting on Monday. I may get to work a few days to help the office get transitioned with the new girl. Honestly, I'd rather not be here. But, I've got to put my big girl pants on, and suck it up. It's been nice working and having some place to be everyday. The money situation has really stressed me out. I'm making less an hour than I was being on unemployment. Sixty dollars less a month to be exact, and now unemployment is taking their sweet time depositing the very little money they are going to give me. I really try to not let the financial side of things really stress me out, because what really can I do? But, I feel like I'm just digging myself deeper and deeper into a hole. I can't keep asking to borrow money. I would love to go to the dentist, and I need to go to the doctor. Did I mention the $300.00 medical bill I got?

I've realized over the past few years that I've not been working, that I've taken having a job for granted. I have also realized that until you've been in my shoes you cannot begin to understand what it's like to get unemployment and not be a part of the working world. You don't get to look forward to Friday at 5:00 p.m. You don't get to dread Monday mornings. And, let's not forget not having money to go out and have dinner with a friend or to go fulfill that shopping crave. I've realized that everyone is different and everyone has stress. Whether or not I may think my problems are worse than the next person's, is completely not true. My stress is just as elevated as the next person's no matter what the cause may be.

Over the course of the past few years I've had some major life changes. First I lost my best friend and now I've lost two jobs. I've become very sensitive to the words of others. I don't think it's OK to say "that sucks" when it involves losing a job or not having money. "That sucks" is more appropriate if Target ran out of your shampoo. "That sucks" is OK to say when you can't get in for a hair appointment until next week. I'm not sure if people just don't know what to say, so their first and only response is "that sucks." I've also noticed people want to tell you how to feel. No one, but me knows how I really feel and for you to judge and tell me how to feel is completely inappropriate. As I should not be telling you how to feel.

PS I realize I've only done three of the ten best days of my life, but I'm having trouble thinking of more. Hopefully, soon, I'll have day four to write about.