Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas!! The past two days have been crazy busy, but good. Always love spending time with my parents and the kids. I can't believe how big Ethan is getting. He is just the happiest baby ever.
Now, it's time to get down to business and apply for jobs everywhere possible. I refuse to go eight months again with no job. I cannot do it!!
You ever say something to someone, and they just blow it off like you're not being serious? I think over the past few years, I have learned to not express my feelings as much to people or even to let myself feel them, because if I really let myself feel what I really want or let people know how I really feel about life in general, I think people would think I was nuts. I know when I tell people that I'm sick of not having a boyfriend and really don't have a lot of friends they just think I'm exagerating. But, what people don't realize is that I'm being serious. I sit home 95% of the time, and when I'm not at home, I'm with family. What happened over the years? I used to go out three nights a week and stay out until 3:00-4:00 a.m. I always out doing something. I know what happened...people got their own lives. The few friends I do have are so busy with their own lives that I never see them. The few friends I have are either married, b/f, kids or all of the above. Everyone always tells me to get out and do stuff. Um, with who? And, when I do get out with friends it seems I'm always around all their friends. And, we all know I don't socialize well. And, when I do try to make good company, I tend to get screwed over someway or somehow (but, that's another blog in and of itself). But....enough of the pity party, right??
Merry Christmas!!

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