Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry Christmas







Merry Christmas!! The past two days have been crazy busy, but good. Always love spending time with my parents and the kids. I can't believe how big Ethan is getting. He is just the happiest baby ever.
Now, it's time to get down to business and apply for jobs everywhere possible. I refuse to go eight months again with no job. I cannot do it!!
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You ever say something to someone, and they just blow it off like you're not being serious? I think over the past few years, I have learned to not express my feelings as much to people or even to let myself feel them, because if I really let myself feel what I really want or let people know how I really feel about life in general, I think people would think I was nuts. I know when I tell people that I'm sick of not having a boyfriend and really don't have a lot of friends they just think I'm exagerating. But, what people don't realize is that I'm being serious. I sit home 95% of the time, and when I'm not at home, I'm with family. What happened over the years? I used to go out three nights a week and stay out until 3:00-4:00 a.m. I always out doing something. I know what happened...people got their own lives. The few friends I do have are so busy with their own lives that I never see them. The few friends I have are either married, b/f, kids or all of the above. Everyone always tells me to get out and do stuff. Um, with who? And, when I do get out with friends it seems I'm always around all their friends. And, we all know I don't socialize well. And, when I do try to make good company, I tend to get screwed over someway or somehow (but, that's another blog in and of itself). But....enough of the pity party, right??
Merry Christmas!!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Day 5 AND my niece's 10th birthday


First and foremost I just want to say Happy Birthday to my niece Morgan. She turns 10 today. I still remember when her parents told me they were pregnant with her. I was the 1st to know and tried so hard to not cry when they told me. I still remember seeing her for the first time. She was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I lived with her for about 2 yrs after she was born, and it was so hard for me to tell her I was moving out (of course she remembers nothing about that day). She used to stand at my bedroom door cause she was to little to open it, and she would just knock and scream "RAE RAE," until I would wake up and/or my sister told her to leave me alone cause I was sleeping. When she was a baby I would take her into my room and let her fall asleep with me until my sister would come get her and take her to her crib. Now, I'm pretty sure she's smarter than me. It blows my mind that she's 10 now, and the things she does and says. Sometimes when she emails me or IM's me, I swear I'm talking to my sister or a friend. She is so mature, and of course she knows it. But, Happy Birthday, MK. Love you!

What else did I do today? Well the usual I suppose. Got up and looked online for jobs. Watched some TV and then went and walked on the treadmill for a half hour. I hate going to the gym. Not only because I'm extremely lazy, but it's so uncomfortable when other people are there. There was 3 of us in this little room. I feel like they are watching me and critizing me...maybe I don't have the right settings going or if I stop did I not workout long enough. All in all, just very uncomfortable. I watched "My Sister's Keeper" today too. Very good movie, but very emotional. Probably not the best choice of a movie. Of course, now I have a headache so I'll probably try to lie down and take a nap (even though it is 8:30 p.m.).

Only 2 more days until Christmas!!

Monday, December 21, 2009

Day 4


Day 4 consisted a lot of what's going on in this picture. Listening to a 10, 4 and 2 year old fight.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Day 3

Day 3 was not to shabby. Got up and filed my unemployment paperwork and searched for a new job. Went to Walmart (PS, I highly recommend NOT going to Walmart or any store until at least the middle of January. Crazy last minute shoppers out. I almost got malled in the baking isle) and got groceries (for the first time in about a month). Went to my Mom's and had dinner w/ my sister and the kids. Jay burned me a bunch of new movies so I watched "Funny People." I figured it was a better choice than watching "My Sister's Keeper." I mean, I really don't need to watch a movie to cry these days. Pretty funny movie -- who doesn't love Adam Sandler, Seth Rogan and Jonah Hill? Going to watch KUWTK and head to bed. Well, really the couch. Not sure why I've slept on the couch for like a week now. What's wrong w/ me? Ha.

Until day 4....

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Day 2


We went to my Mom's today to decorate the cut-out cookies. I was and am so exhausted for some reason. I think it's from my cold. Not sure I'll be awake to much longer, and it's only 7:00 p.m.


Till tomorrow ...

Friday, December 18, 2009

Day 1

Well, yesterday I got fired from Verizon. I think I dealt with getting fired better the first time. Probably because I know how hard it is to be off work, and all of the cutting back and saving I have to do. Plus, I'm really worried about not getting unemployment.

I got to sleep off my migraine I had from last night. I got up about 9:00 a.m. and immediately jumped online. I filled out my unemployment and updated my resume. I know when I find a new job, I'll look back and be so happy that I did get fired because that was the most miserable place to ever work.

Michele says everything always happens for a reason...hopefully, that reason comes to me soon. I still don't think I've figured out the reason why I got fired from SKB&W. I would think it was because then I got an awesome paying job at Verizon, but, yeah not so much of a good thing.

Well ... day 1 of being unemployed is almost over. Looking forward to day 2.